i could never regret you.

the end is coming
and with it
comes a new beginning
reincarnation of time
my 18th 1st of january
and soon my 19th 30th of march

this new year is different
so ominous
so full of potential
who knows what will happen
to me, for me, around me
all of it-
i am anxious

my first january
with my new outlook
with my new identity
i hope it all works out
for the better

who knows what "the better" is?

i hope as few people
as i can manage
get hurt this year
if any at all

i would be dumb to think
that none will be hurt
by what the future holds

i just hope
i don't get lost
take the wrong path
or lost in my head
or my heart

i hope this new year
doesn't leave me next year
pitiful and sodden

i hope it leaves me
vivacious
beautiful
and ready for a new one

time is a scary thing
and it's spent on things
we end up regretting

well, instead of second-guessing myself
and everything i do
i just simply don't regret

so, my dear 2009
and everything you hold
i love you
and i am such a better person
for facing you